Tell me I’m not the only one who has days where everything makes no sense and you feel all kinds of off kilter and out of sorts. (Seriously – I could use the reassurance!)
One of my go to activities to unravel a tangled mind is writing in my journal. Sometimes, a poem will pop out. As I write that, I can hear my Dad frowning – if it has no meter or rhyme it can’t possibly be a poem.
Sometimes the things we believe hold us hostage. Stop us from trying something new or doing something brave. These words may or may not be a poem, but spilling them out in my journal helped me understand that while I may be quite attached to some of the things I believe, they don’t serve me well anymore.
I suspect we all have some beliefs that are not helping us any longer… How about you?
I am unsteady
I don’t know what I know
or, is it that I know what I don’t know?
I’ve told myself stories about
How I am
Who I am
What I am
What you think about me
My beliefs sit at my feet, looking up at me,
Am I true?
Where did I come from?
Do I get to stay?
Will you choose me?
I see fear in their eyes.
Rejection is death to a belief.
Can I bundle them up in my arms,
hold them close, and reassure them
that even if their work here is no longer needed,
I have loved them dearly?
Can I let them go then,
to scamper off like scolded puppies
scurrying to hide under a chair
until I’m not watching.
Until they sneak back to chew on my heels once again?
No. It seems not.
They must be banished
for my own good.
Oh, but their pleading eyes!
How can I reject those eyes
that I have loved
that I have trusted.
But, set them free I must.
Oust them from the comfortable cushion of my being.
During art journal classes, the one thing that everyone seems to have great fun with is stencils. Spraying ink over stencils, and rubbing back paint through stencils is one of the first lessons I teach in art journal class. It’s quick, easy, effective and seems to unleash our inner child faster than anything.
There are endless suppliers of ready-made stencils – just Google ‘stencils’ and you could disappear for a week checking them all out, and still not have exhausted the possibilities. But, for artwork that is uniquely yours, with the fun level only stencils can provide, cutting your own is the way to go.
I’ve tried all sorts of material to cut stencils from, some more successful than others. Template plastic (a refugee from my patchwork days) worked well, but was murder on the fingers to cut, and so hard to get a knife through, crisp detail was hard to achieve. Manila folders work OK for one or two uses. Much easier to cut, but once they’re wet with ink or paint, the light cardboard buckles and tends to fall apart pretty quickly.
Enter laminated copy paper! I guess I must have been doing a bunch of laminating for something, and I wondered if maybe this might work well? Turns out it does. I’m not sure how long these will last, I suspect that ultimately the laminate may let go, but they’ve survived one round of art journal classes in tact, so I’m feeling hopeful.
How It’s Done
Grab a sheet of ordinary copy paper
Draw your design – make it simple, and remember that you need to leave some ‘veins’ or connecting pieces, or you’ll just end up with one big hole. A series of simple shapes – squares, triangles, circles – repeated many times are some of the most effective stencils you can use.
Whack the sheet with your hand drawn design through the laminator. I’m lucky to have one here in my office. If you are seriously deprived and don’t own one, try an office supply store or perhaps your local school or printing works. They’ll probably have a small charge, but it will be pittance compared to buying ready-made stencils.
Grab a Stanley knife, self-healing mat and a cuppa (probably not a wine – though I have done that, and the stencil and I lived to tell the tale) and settle in to cut out all the little pieces of your design. Remember – you need to leave little ‘bridges’ in more intricate designs.
Give your fingers a bit of a massage. While the laminated sheet is much easier to cut through than some stencil material, by the time you carefully cut out all the bits, you’ll still be a little tender in the digits
Pull out the spray inks and paints and get cracking on experimenting with your new hand cut stencil, by laying the stencil down over your page which has a bit of background colour on it, and spraying some ink over the stencil onto the page. Carefully lift off the stencil, and Viola! (Have a spare sheet or journal handy to mop up the ink from the stencil after you remove it)
A Mask is a Stencil in Reverse
Silhouettes make great stencils, too. As well as eliminating the anxiety about leaving little bridges and connecting bits, if you are careful as you cut, you will end up not only with a stencil, but also the piece you cut out ever so carefully, which can be used a mask. For this one of Payton and Pa, I printed a photo onto copy paper, laminated it and cut out around the outline, yielding a positive and negative image. A stencil and a mask. Lay the mask (the cutout piece) over a page with a background already laid down, spritz spray ink over the mask, carefully lift the mask off, and there you have it – Payton’s first horse ride with her Pa frozen in time, and spray ink!
There’s a bunch of ways you can incorporate stencils into your creations… this is just the tip of the proverbial iceberg. You can give yourself a little detective challenge and see if you can spot where I’ve used stencils on the works in the Art Journal Pages Gallery. Or, have some fun in an Art Journaling Workshop with me!
What does it say about your personality when you have an idea to try something you know bugger all about, and think “I can’t do this, but I’m doing it anyway?” I don’t know, either, but here are the results! For a long time, I have thought that adding a few videos of works unfolding and techniques in action might be fun for me, and interesting for you. I have a lot to learn, and will possibly need to relocate to an area where I can access a much bigger Internet data quota (apologies to the Aussie Government, but this NBN thing isn’t working out so well for us out here), which isn’t such a realistic idea. I think there is a lot of research and education in my immediate future if I’m to follow this notion any further.
However… this was fun for me, and I hope you find the video a little bit interesting. It’s a time lapse look at creating a background with tissue paper on canvas for a mixed media work. The background was done without any firm idea of what the focal point might be. That realisation came a little later.
After the addition of some acrylic paints to introduce a little colour, it occurred to me that this would be the perfect background for another challenge I’d been hankering to take on. A photo of our Granddaughter, Payton, in a rare moment of stillness, had been whispering it’s longing to be drawn or painted for a couple of months. For someone who, a few years ago, wouldn’t even attempt to draw a face or human form, because “that’s not my thing, I just can’t do them”; I’m pretty excited to have captured a resemblance to a human being, much less enough of a resemblance to a particular human for her parents to know she was the model!
Her features were sketched in, with Derwent Graphitint pencils. These babies might be my favourite art supply. (Even as I type that, a hundred other little special art supplies are clamouring in my mind to be named favourites, as well!) These pencils – as the name suggests – are much like a graphite pencil, with the added appeal of a range of beautiful, subtle colours, as well as being water soluble. They’re not as intense as some of the other water soluble pencils out there, so the results are soft and delicious. A little watercolour for the pink in her dress and lips, a few touches of inky black for details, and she was done.
That little butterfly she’s so intently looking at? That is a perfect example of the glorious serendipity of layering materials and media. It wasn’t until after I’d drawn Payton in, that I noticed that little butterfly on an underlying layer of tissue paper, perfectly placed to seem to be sitting on her hand, and the focus of her rapt attention. Sometimes, there are forces at work when we create that simply cannot be explained. Happens to me all the time. And, it’s the best feeling.
One way and another, the art has been struggling for attention lately. What with plotting ways to spoil a new grandbaby, end of financial year, and a tiny change in our farm business structure (how is it that a tiny change necessitates a thousand phone calls, pieces of paper, and forms to fill in? It will forever remain a mystery…) just to name a few; the time available for creativity has been limited.
There are, thankfully, Art Journals. Smeared with paint, spattered with ink, heavy with bits and bobs glued in, and carrying no pressure to come up with anything special – just to pick up a brush, pencil or scrap of paper and slap something on a page. Aaahh…. balm for a careworn soul.
As I’m writing this, looking at Just One Heart up there, I realise there should be a comma after the word blooming. Oops! (As a self confessed grammar Nazi, that’s going to bug me quite a bit!) The page was created with Dylusions Ink sprays, assorted stencils, a few bits of paper, coloured pencils, stamps and marker pens. The Art of Whimsical Lettering by Joanne Sharp delivered the inspiration to have a crack at some fancy lettering – which was tremendous fun!
So much fun, in fact, that there was more on the next journal page. Worry is a Misuse of your Imagination. I need this tattooed inside my eyelids! Not only a misuse, but probably a terrible waste of imagination as well. Constructed in a quite similar fashion to the first page, with acrylic paints instead of ink sprays, and a hand cut stencil. Manilla folders are infinitely more interesting used to cut a stencil than they could ever hope to be in my office.
As life’s path seemed to be walking me more and more towards cows and tractors (which I shouldn’t complain about – that enterprise kind of keep us fed and clothed), and further away from the studio, I engaged that imagination, and decided to try bringing the farm to the journal. This little guy is brushed in Sumi ink (my current infatuation) over a stencilled, ink sprayed, and scrap paper collaged background. He’s funky, but I think I love him.
A little story, for your information: I often add links to products, books, artists, places – pretty much anything that I think is great. Only because I use it, love it, just plain cannot live without it; and to make it easier for you to find more info about the things I’m waffling on about. No one pays me to give them a plug – it’s all about the love!
My Mum recently took me to task about the lack of interesting activity here on the blog. OK, the lack of any activity at all. She had a point. (You’ve got to love Mums for keeping it real and calling you on your shortcomings.) There hasn’t however, been a lack of activity in my world – as my middle prince would say- lots of cool stuff (OK, so he wouldn’t say stuff, he’d say another word that starts with s…but I’m sure you get the idea) has been going on.
In amongst a bunch of other ‘stuff’, I’ve been working away in an online class with the irrepressible Jane Davenport. It’s not the first of her classes I have enjoyed: Supplies Me is a wonderful journey through a vast assortment of media while she teaches the nuances of drawing faces and figures -things I long ago swore off as being ‘not my thing’ and something I believed for a long time I just couldn’t do. The lovely lady above was the result of my explorations in “Ink Week”, where Jane’s students discover the joy of Sumi ink in an Aquawash pen. I have to tell you; that’s the most delicious, free feeling media to work with and I can’t believe it’s taken me so long to discover it! It was quite difficult to stop drawing, which goes some of the way to explaining how she comes to have a couple of mouths and a nose on her chest and shoulder.
Most recently though, the “Print and Scan” class has held me spellbound. For a very long time, I’ve been keenly aware of a limited understanding of digital file sizes, types and manipulation. I lost track of the countless times I told myself I needed to learn this ‘techie’ stuff. Then, *cue violins and blinding bright light* I read that Jane has created this class – the very one I need, with all the skills I need to learn! It’s Jane’s first Professional Development class; and the investment paid for itself in the first class. The image above is a scan of a 2 page journal spread. We learned how to manipulate the image to get rid of the ‘gutter’ in the middle of the pages, and lots of other techniques to show the artwork at it’s glowing best.
After a small mind explosion (don’t worry, it didn’t make much mess) – and a bit of practice – the lovely lady made her way onto the journal page; and changed the colour of her face – all in the innards of my computer, with information streamed to my computer desk via the wonder of technology and the Internet.
What’s great about Jane is that she delivers this in artist speak, not techie talk; though she has extensive technical knowledge. What’s great about the Internet delivery is not having to drive for hours (and hours…and hours..); You can stop and start that video and toggle back and forth between your image manipulation and the instruction, so you practice it as soon as you see/hear it; you can work on it at whatever time suits you; and – possibly my personal favourite – you can hang out in your paint stained shirt and yoga pants. (Have I ever told you just HOW much I love my yoga pants?)
In honour of Carmel (my awesome Mum) there will be effort made to post stories of more of the cool ‘stuff’ going on around here. Right now though, it’s time to go and log into the Print and Scan classroom for some more mind exploding fun.
If you’ve been visiting here for a while, you’ll know that the human face is not something I generally look to for subject matter. Keeper of the Mystery certainly didn’t start out with any intention of a person appearing, yet, as it evolved, she insisted on making an appearance! (My family of practical males are bewildered when I suggest that an ‘inanimate’ object like a painting might be telling me secrets, or what is to happen next…but, that’s how it works sometimes). And, I have to tell you – she knows the answer to all those questions that we mere mortals struggle with. But, no matter how hard I look into her eyes and plead with her to share them with me – she doesn’t. You see, she’s not called the Keeper of the Mystery for nothing!
I’ve been having a great time with resin, as well. This lovely ring (I keep wondering if I can, in fact, bring myself to part with it? I LOVE this) has a bunch of tiny millefiori glass pieces set in it. How cool would this look with your jeans and favourite white shirt?
My awesome framer, Les Rigby, is currently weaving his magic with this piece, as well as a number of others. This is a concoction of woven felt strips that had all sorts of goodies applied which was then dry felted with a machine felting technique. Have to give a shout out to my sister here – that triangular piece in the top centre was in fact one of her earrings in 1986. ( If you hang onto something long enough….)
This one is in need of a name – any suggestions? Coming up with suitably engaging names for a number of works is just one of the things that will be keeping me busy over the next month. (Containing my excitement about the wedding of our middle son is another – but that’s a story for another day!)
Do you know anyone in Cunnamulla? I’d love you to share with them that the exhibition “Feeling My Way” will open there at the Cunnamulla Fella Centre Art Gallery on Friday 5th April from 6pm; and I’d love to meet them!
It’s kind of fun, and keeps the people around me shaking their heads…
Today, it’s been reclaimed tomato paste tubes. (Yes, I cut it open and washed it carefully first – after we ate the spaghetti bolognese, which was awesome, by the way…)
The inside of the paste tube is the loveliest, soft, buttery gold colour, and it’s easy to bend, fold and generally manipulate. Here, it’s got some painted vliesofix and a chiffon scarf ironed over it, which gives it that orange-y colour in patches. Keeping it company is a piece of copper shim, with many holes poked through it with my trusty – and very blunt – awl. Don’t worry, I keep an old awl just for nasty, tough jobs like this. There does exist another pointier, sharper, better looking awl for the tasks awls were really designed to carry out.
The copper shim becomes a kind of ‘claw’ to set the glass bubble in, and after a bit of free machine embroidery (plus three broken machine needles and countless broken top threads), the end result looks like this:
This little lumpy treasure is destined, along with some other lumpy treasures, to be the focal point on a canvas that’s been evolving in the studio.
If you promise to eat all your vegetables, I might even show it to you when it’s finished. (Yes, Carmel* – that means you!)
*Carmel is my Mum – who is awesome – and also happens to be the worst vegetable eater in the history of the universe!
Do you remember a post a while back about “What Lies Beneath”? I decided to take Sarah’s advice, and tackle a series, based on that piece…. Here is What Lies Beneath #2…
What Lies Beneath #2 … Fear 25.5cm x 30.5cm mixed Media on Canvas (c) 2012 Tracey Hewitt
This one began with the word Fear … not a theme typical of my work, yet exactly what this series needed to tackle head on. The original word is totally obliterated – which feels like a good thing, yet the piece has a dark and broody feel about it. I’m quite uncertain what the face in the top left corner is about – but he was there, and refused to leave! Does he freak you out a bit, or is it just me? (and by the way, don’t ask me why he’s a ‘he’ with such red lips…but there’s no doubting it in my mind!)
Even the birds, which to me are a symbol of freedom and lightness, have a heavy, menacing sense to them….
After drawing lots of practice faces for Pam Carriker’sAngels Anthology class, I finally felt ready to tackle the canvas and paint. Firstly, a few bits and bobs were laid into impasto gel , which also had some marks scraped into it…along with the word: Grateful.
I missed taking photos of the stages between the first photo and the finished piece – I may have gotten just a little caught up in bringing her to life, and forgotten to pick up the camera. (By the way, her weird looking eye is a reflection picked up by the camera – she actually has pretty normal looking eyes in reality!)
She’s not the Mona Lisa, by any means, but I’m pleased with the result…it looks recognisably like a face!!
And while I don’t know that I’d go so far as to say I conquered my fear (of faces); I will say I gave it a swift kick in the butt – and am keen to continue to give it a good shake up.
The time has come for the next whisper to be completed and sent on. This one will join it’s brothers and sisters and make it’s way home to Sarah Larsen (Sarah is the generous artist who visited Theodore and offered us the Art and Soul workshop earlier in the year).
We’re now 3 artists removed from the original artist and their original theme, and I suspect, in the spirit of the childhood game “Chinese Whispers”, that our collaboration is based on…we’re getting a little off track – at leat I have a strong feeling I am!
Sarah’s pages are an unusual shape – which you can’t see here, because I can only show you a tiny hint…There’s gesso, acrylic paint, tissue paper, stamped images, gold and black pen and charcoal used in this one. This rubber stamp of kids swinging in a tree is one of my favourites…and there are a lot of stamps in that stamp drawer in the studio! It reminds me of a late afternoon swing as the sun sinks low in the sky…I get a peaceful feeling just looking at it. That, however, is no clue as to the theme.
And I guess this isn’t either.
This is the desk next to the piece as I finished up a minute ago. You can see a little bit of it in the bottom left hand corner. Does that help you?
I have to confess that I can’t say what this theme is in a word or two – this one has more of a general feel about it. I hope I’m not too far off the mark… I’d love to hear your guesses as to the theme…